Scared
by Nancy McLeod
I’m scared
It’s paralyzing
What is to become
Of me
Where am I headed?
Is this all
I will become
It’s terrifying
What might be
Or
What will be
I have to face
My fears
I can’t go on
Feeling this way
I’m scared
I’m terrified
What the future
Will be
I’m just so
Scared
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Driving (A Poem)
Driving by Nancy McLeod
Driving on the highway
Driving too fast
Too many pressures
Faster and Faster
Traffic stops dead
There’s a squeal
Of brakes
The car becomes airborne
Then it’s over
All the pain
All the suffering
Yes the pain
Is gone but
Now it’s transferred
To the Ones
Left behind
How will they deal
With their loss?
Their Pain?
Will they do the same?
Will they loose it all
On the highway
Driving....
Driving on the highway
Driving too fast
Too many pressures
Faster and Faster
Traffic stops dead
There’s a squeal
Of brakes
The car becomes airborne
Then it’s over
All the pain
All the suffering
Yes the pain
Is gone but
Now it’s transferred
To the Ones
Left behind
How will they deal
With their loss?
Their Pain?
Will they do the same?
Will they loose it all
On the highway
Driving....
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
You and Me (a poem)
You and Me
by Nancy McLeod
We’ve been chatting for what seems
like forever
I feel like we have known each
other forever
my sweet man
I feel I can tell you my inner
most secrets
Things I wouldn’t share with
just anyone
I feel I can trust you and
that is such a big thing
This coming from a
woman who lost all
Trust in mankind
Now I’m at a point with
you that I feel you will
accept me for what I am
This relationship will be
built on trust, love and
friendship
I pray with all my heart
we will have a long and
loving relationship
You have given me something
I thought I would never find
A man who truly loves
me for me and will love
me regardless
Lets travel through time
together
Lets have a life journey of love
and laughter
Just the two of us
You and Me
by Nancy McLeod
We’ve been chatting for what seems
like forever
I feel like we have known each
other forever
my sweet man
I feel I can tell you my inner
most secrets
Things I wouldn’t share with
just anyone
I feel I can trust you and
that is such a big thing
This coming from a
woman who lost all
Trust in mankind
Now I’m at a point with
you that I feel you will
accept me for what I am
This relationship will be
built on trust, love and
friendship
I pray with all my heart
we will have a long and
loving relationship
You have given me something
I thought I would never find
A man who truly loves
me for me and will love
me regardless
Lets travel through time
together
Lets have a life journey of love
and laughter
Just the two of us
You and Me
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Passion (a poem)
Passion by Nancy McLeod
Passion is in their kiss
Passion is in his eyes
Passion is in her eyes
Passion is when their eyes hold
Passion is when he touches her
Passion is when she touches him
Passion is when they see each other for the first time
Passion is when they consume each others every thought
Passion is wanting to be with him and only him
Passion is wanting to be with her and only her
Passion is the love he feels for her and only her
Passion is the love she feels for him and only him
Passion is in their kiss...
Passion is in their kiss
Passion is in his eyes
Passion is in her eyes
Passion is when their eyes hold
Passion is when he touches her
Passion is when she touches him
Passion is when they see each other for the first time
Passion is when they consume each others every thought
Passion is wanting to be with him and only him
Passion is wanting to be with her and only her
Passion is the love he feels for her and only her
Passion is the love she feels for him and only him
Passion is in their kiss...
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Update on My dogs
Well unfortunately we couldn't keep Ben and Summer. We gave them away to a family who had always wanted a Pug dog but couldn't afford to buy one.
There were a number of dog fights between Summer and one of our other dogs. It just depended on who she didn't like at the moment.
Summer became pregnant by Ben two weeks after we brought them home. She delivered 4 puppies on April 16. One was born stillborn.
Even though I had taken Ben and Summer to the vet, the vet found that Summer was infested with bugs. This was when we took the puppies for their six week check up. Summer had developed a sore on her ear. She thinks she had them before she came to us. We had Summer five months before she discovered this. The bugs were passed onto the puppies.
We decided to keep the puppies. At the moment the puppies are getting along with the adult dogs. We first introduced the puppies to one of the adult dogs. Making sure we had control of the adult dog and bringing them in one at a time, in case there was a problem. The adult dogs looked terrified of the puppies. We had brought them into the kitchen. A week later I decided it would be better to introduce them in the backyard. That way it was the puppies going into the adult dogs territory. It was much better, there was so much more room for the adult dogs to get away from the puppies. The puppies really enjoy roaming around the backyard. There is so much to explore!
There were a number of dog fights between Summer and one of our other dogs. It just depended on who she didn't like at the moment.
Summer became pregnant by Ben two weeks after we brought them home. She delivered 4 puppies on April 16. One was born stillborn.
Even though I had taken Ben and Summer to the vet, the vet found that Summer was infested with bugs. This was when we took the puppies for their six week check up. Summer had developed a sore on her ear. She thinks she had them before she came to us. We had Summer five months before she discovered this. The bugs were passed onto the puppies.
We decided to keep the puppies. At the moment the puppies are getting along with the adult dogs. We first introduced the puppies to one of the adult dogs. Making sure we had control of the adult dog and bringing them in one at a time, in case there was a problem. The adult dogs looked terrified of the puppies. We had brought them into the kitchen. A week later I decided it would be better to introduce them in the backyard. That way it was the puppies going into the adult dogs territory. It was much better, there was so much more room for the adult dogs to get away from the puppies. The puppies really enjoy roaming around the backyard. There is so much to explore!
Thursday, May 10, 2012
On family
I just don't get it! Families can be so troubling, I think I've been ousted. Things really changed when my parents passed away. I believe there were certain jealousies when my parents were alive but never voiced. I heard indirectly that one of my siblings thought I had been taking advantage of my situation with my father. I had lived with my father for many years. He had told me that he was happy to have me living with him. He was so lonely after my mother passed away. He was a great help to me and I hope I helped him as well.
I feel after my mother passed away, I was given a special time with my father. A time a child and their parent rarely experience. I got to know my father as an adult, such a different experience then as a child. Let's face it as a teenager we perceive that we know everything and our parents just don't get it. I did get to know my father better but we were always close. It was very hard when my father passed away for my daughter and myself. We saw him every day, ate our meals together and talked. My daughter had a special bond with her grandfather, she felt he was more a father than a grandfather. My daughter didn't see her father for 2 years after her father and I separated.
So many things happened after my father passed away between my siblings and myself. It took me a long time to grieve and it seemed that my siblings were over his death quickly. They couldn't wait to get rid of the house,the contents and just move on. This was my home for 6 years and I was asked why I was still living there by one of my siblings. I think they were afraid I wasn't going to move. Well I did move and I was able to find closure. Now 4 years later I don't hear from my siblings unless I phone or send an email.
The other day a thought popped into my head, there comes a time when you just have to let people go. I'm at a time in my life where I just don't want to play the games people play. You know the ones where people put one person against another. Sorry I'm tired of those kind of games. So if my family wants to be part of my life they had better do something about it. I'm tired and I just want peace in my life.
I feel after my mother passed away, I was given a special time with my father. A time a child and their parent rarely experience. I got to know my father as an adult, such a different experience then as a child. Let's face it as a teenager we perceive that we know everything and our parents just don't get it. I did get to know my father better but we were always close. It was very hard when my father passed away for my daughter and myself. We saw him every day, ate our meals together and talked. My daughter had a special bond with her grandfather, she felt he was more a father than a grandfather. My daughter didn't see her father for 2 years after her father and I separated.
So many things happened after my father passed away between my siblings and myself. It took me a long time to grieve and it seemed that my siblings were over his death quickly. They couldn't wait to get rid of the house,the contents and just move on. This was my home for 6 years and I was asked why I was still living there by one of my siblings. I think they were afraid I wasn't going to move. Well I did move and I was able to find closure. Now 4 years later I don't hear from my siblings unless I phone or send an email.
The other day a thought popped into my head, there comes a time when you just have to let people go. I'm at a time in my life where I just don't want to play the games people play. You know the ones where people put one person against another. Sorry I'm tired of those kind of games. So if my family wants to be part of my life they had better do something about it. I'm tired and I just want peace in my life.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
My dogs
I recently adopted two dogs, we had answered an ad on a website. In the ad it said the dogs had been rescued from an abusive owner. When my husband phoned he asked me to talk to the owner. I said it mentions that the dogs had been abused, the female might be pregnant and the dogs had never been separated. The reply came back yes, we had rescued them from someone that wanted to leave the dogs outside all the time. I asked her why she thought the female might be pregnant. She said well I'm not a vet. I also asked if they were two years old and if they were brother and sister, she said yes they were two years old and no, not brother and sister.
We drove three and half hours to the house they were located at. The owner had her relatives met us and talk about the dogs. The dogs seemed very friendly and looked fine. Well I didn't look closely enough. I had paid for the dogs when my husband said have you paid for the dogs? I said yes and then he asked is there something wrong with the females eye? They said yes she is missing an eye. The previous owner pulled on the collar so much the eye popped out.
The strange thing is the night before I had a thought that what we were doing was the right thing to do. It was if something was driving me to take the dogs.
We took the dogs and put them in the backseat of our car. The male dog cried as soon as we drove away. I think he was worried about where he was going. I brought the dogs to the front seat and put them on my lap. The male dog quieted down right away. I noticed that his one eye didn't look right, it was a bluish color. When we stopped for gas my husband checked his eye and said there was a dent in his eye.
I'm really surprised the owner never mentioned that both dogs had problems with their eyes. I would think that they shouldn't have asked for much considering the dogs are going to need medical attention.
Once we were home we put them in the backyard for about ten minutes. Then we brought them in to meet our other dogs. They all seem to get along pretty good, I know it'll take time for them to trust the other dogs.
The next day I took the two dogs to the vet. The female I named Summer, the vet said she was about two to three years old. She wasn't pregnant but about to go into heat. Her eye had ruptured and had shrunk to the size of a raisin. Other than her eye, the vet said she was in good health. The male, my husband named Ben, the vet said was not two years old but probably around 5 years old. His eye had a whole in it, she had stained it to be sure. She said he would have to have eye drops and have the eye re stained in one week. The vet gave Summer a parvo shot in case she became pregnant. She didn't want to give Ben any shots until his eye healed.
It's only been a few days but I believe Ben and Summer were terribly abused. Ben reacts when he sees my husband or my stepson but he does nothing when he sees me. In the morning when I let him out of his cage, he wages his tail. When my stepson tried Ben started barking and growling at him. My stepson said he looked like Cujo. Ben has been nothing but sweet with me. He loves to have his ears scratched, he strikes me as having had no attention.
It is terrible what people will do to animals. I think it is disgusting how abusive people can be. One of our other dogs, we rescued from Regina, I believe was hit repeatedly. He was scared of a tea box when I took it out of the cupboard. He ran out of the room when I took a page off of the calendar. A year later he still ducks when we go to pat him. These dogs will never forget what was done to them, hopefully they will live a happy life with us.
We drove three and half hours to the house they were located at. The owner had her relatives met us and talk about the dogs. The dogs seemed very friendly and looked fine. Well I didn't look closely enough. I had paid for the dogs when my husband said have you paid for the dogs? I said yes and then he asked is there something wrong with the females eye? They said yes she is missing an eye. The previous owner pulled on the collar so much the eye popped out.
The strange thing is the night before I had a thought that what we were doing was the right thing to do. It was if something was driving me to take the dogs.
We took the dogs and put them in the backseat of our car. The male dog cried as soon as we drove away. I think he was worried about where he was going. I brought the dogs to the front seat and put them on my lap. The male dog quieted down right away. I noticed that his one eye didn't look right, it was a bluish color. When we stopped for gas my husband checked his eye and said there was a dent in his eye.
I'm really surprised the owner never mentioned that both dogs had problems with their eyes. I would think that they shouldn't have asked for much considering the dogs are going to need medical attention.
Once we were home we put them in the backyard for about ten minutes. Then we brought them in to meet our other dogs. They all seem to get along pretty good, I know it'll take time for them to trust the other dogs.
The next day I took the two dogs to the vet. The female I named Summer, the vet said she was about two to three years old. She wasn't pregnant but about to go into heat. Her eye had ruptured and had shrunk to the size of a raisin. Other than her eye, the vet said she was in good health. The male, my husband named Ben, the vet said was not two years old but probably around 5 years old. His eye had a whole in it, she had stained it to be sure. She said he would have to have eye drops and have the eye re stained in one week. The vet gave Summer a parvo shot in case she became pregnant. She didn't want to give Ben any shots until his eye healed.
It's only been a few days but I believe Ben and Summer were terribly abused. Ben reacts when he sees my husband or my stepson but he does nothing when he sees me. In the morning when I let him out of his cage, he wages his tail. When my stepson tried Ben started barking and growling at him. My stepson said he looked like Cujo. Ben has been nothing but sweet with me. He loves to have his ears scratched, he strikes me as having had no attention.
It is terrible what people will do to animals. I think it is disgusting how abusive people can be. One of our other dogs, we rescued from Regina, I believe was hit repeatedly. He was scared of a tea box when I took it out of the cupboard. He ran out of the room when I took a page off of the calendar. A year later he still ducks when we go to pat him. These dogs will never forget what was done to them, hopefully they will live a happy life with us.
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