I just don't get it! Families can be so troubling, I think I've been ousted. Things really changed when my parents passed away. I believe there were certain jealousies when my parents were alive but never voiced. I heard indirectly that one of my siblings thought I had been taking advantage of my situation with my father. I had lived with my father for many years. He had told me that he was happy to have me living with him. He was so lonely after my mother passed away. He was a great help to me and I hope I helped him as well.
I feel after my mother passed away, I was given a special time with my father. A time a child and their parent rarely experience. I got to know my father as an adult, such a different experience then as a child. Let's face it as a teenager we perceive that we know everything and our parents just don't get it. I did get to know my father better but we were always close. It was very hard when my father passed away for my daughter and myself. We saw him every day, ate our meals together and talked. My daughter had a special bond with her grandfather, she felt he was more a father than a grandfather. My daughter didn't see her father for 2 years after her father and I separated.
So many things happened after my father passed away between my siblings and myself. It took me a long time to grieve and it seemed that my siblings were over his death quickly. They couldn't wait to get rid of the house,the contents and just move on. This was my home for 6 years and I was asked why I was still living there by one of my siblings. I think they were afraid I wasn't going to move. Well I did move and I was able to find closure. Now 4 years later I don't hear from my siblings unless I phone or send an email.
The other day a thought popped into my head, there comes a time when you just have to let people go. I'm at a time in my life where I just don't want to play the games people play. You know the ones where people put one person against another. Sorry I'm tired of those kind of games. So if my family wants to be part of my life they had better do something about it. I'm tired and I just want peace in my life.
